Decisions, Decisions..

It has been a long week. I'm sure it just felt longer because we had visitors, Josh's Dad and Linda (Dad's girlfriend). We were go, go, go all week. Trying to see as much as we could in the 7 short days they were here. Now they have left and Josh is back to work after leave and I am left alone with my thoughts. Josh is leaving for deployment very soon. I have a lot of decisions to make on my own. His Navy contract is up shortly after they return from deployment. So, do I stay here in California by myself, well not by myself, I have friends here. Or do I move to Maryland where I can be closer to family so that Jackson can bond with them and I can have their much needed help and support while Josh is away.

I always said I wouldn't be one of those military wives that went home for every deployment, but now I am seeing that in some cases, it is absolutely necessary. I can understand why some chose to do it. For me, it is still not an ideal situation because I NEED my own space. A place to call mine that I can escape to when I need some down time. Josh and I talked about is and realized the money we'd save by me moving back could help us with a down payment on a house when he was out of the Navy. I had they idea maybe I could stay in a long term hotel, or short term furnished rental and but our stuff in storage so that A) I wouldn't have to worry about moving it from one coast to the next by myself, cost wise and other and B) so that everything would still be in one place when the Navy would move us one last time. That idea got nixed when I did some research and realized I'd be paying just as much in rent here as I would for the storage unit and a place to stay, meaning we wouldn't be saving any money.

So now it's back to the drawing board. I have to get something figured out in the next few weeks so I can plan, pack, whatever needs to be done. I only have 4 months left on the lease here. I do know that if we stay in CA, I definitely want to move. This complex is not family friendly. There are no other children, or even a playground around for Jackson. He needs playmates and a place to run.

So that's it for now. I just wanted to get that out.