Getting ready...

It's all becoming so real. I have 10 weeks left until my due date. Our little boy will be here before I know it. I had my 3rd trimester class yesterday with a Labor & Delivery tour. I got a lot of helpful information along with some things that scared the pants off me. My biggest fear is not being able to figure out how to calm him when he crys. They played a CD of a baby crying that couldn't be soothed. I thought I was going to cry right there in class. I told Josh that he'd come home from work to find Jackson in his swing and me in the corner rocking like some one who belongs in the asylum... lol. I know we'll get through it. It may be tough but I have become so strong I know I can get through anything. And I have a great support system to help me when I need it.

On a happy note, His room is really starting to come together. We just need a few more things for him.


I'm getting a mani/pedi tomorrow. I am so looking forward to that. And then Saturday I am getting my maternity pictures taken with an AMAZING photographer. All in preparation for my baby shower on the 16th!
That's all the updates I have for now, so I will leave you with this 30 week belly picture.


xoxo

Double Digits!

99 days left in my pregnancy.

I am feeling a range of emotions.

I'm so excited to see him, and hold him.

I wonder who will he look like? How bad is labor really?

I'm scared. Will I know what to do? Will I be a good mom?

I'm nervous. About bringing him home, and him meeting the kitties. About being alone with him when the parent's go back to the states and Josh goes back to work.

Right now, I feel him kicking and dancing in my belly and I know he is ok and he is growing fine. I love this feeling but I am sure once her is here everything will be fine. He will be the most loved little boy ever. He has a Mommy and a Daddy who have waited a very long time for him and already love him more then the world. He has grandparents who are looking forward to spoiling him silly. Aunts, Uncles, and Cousins who are already more then willing to babysit. Friends who would drop what they are doing to lend a helping hand.
We have a pretty amazing support system.

I know deep down everything is going to be just fine. Despite all my fears. I guess I am just a natural worry-er. Anyway, enough rambling... :D

Tomorrow I will be 26 weeks. The last week of the 2nd trimester or the first week of the 3rd. Every one counts them differently. I'm in the home strech!

It's a Boy!

I haven't updated but most of my followers already know. We are expecting a little boy. Jackson Asher will be here in November. He's growing like he should and he is a very active little boy. I can't wait to meet him.

We have a lot of the big stuff for him already. Just need to order bedding then it will just be little things. We have decided to breast feed. I'm hoping he takes to it like a pro.

If all goes well, My mom will be here November 1st to help us wait for him. She will be here through Thanksgiving. Then Josh's Mom and his brother should be coming out for Christmas.

On the 27th of this month, there will only be 100 days left in my pregnancy. Since I hit 20 weeks, It all feels like it is going way to fast. As excited and anxious as I am to meet him. I am worried and scared at the same time.

Getting Anxious...

My anatomy ultrasound is in exactly a week from today. It's been so long since the last time I've seen the baby. I want to see bean and make sure s/he is growing on track. I really hope baby cooperates and shows us the goodies so we can figure out if we are having Baby Girl "K" or Baby Boy "J". The suspense is killing me.

Oh another note, I think I have started to feel the baby move. It's just once in a while. I wish I had an ultrasound machine to watch while I felt the movement to see if it really is baby :D

15 week OB appointment

Went pretty well, Baby likes to mess with me and will not let them get a read on the heat rate with the doppler so I was able to get another ultrasound today. Baby G's heart rate was 138bpm And looks great. Still right on for growth and I swear is going to be a dancer or something. Everytime I see little bean, it's always moving. Because of it's position, We couldn't get a good shot for the Dr to try to guess what Baby is so, I have my anatomy ultrasound scheduled for June 17th to figure out. Aahh A whole month to wait still.

Also, I had to take my 1 hour glucose test, The drink wasn't as bad as I thought it would be at first, but towards the end, I felt like I was going to throw up. Josh kept telling me he was going to tape my mouth shut because I only had 15 more minutes to keep it down. He's so loving huh?

Next week is our Budget for Baby class and I am very excited about that one. Then maybe I will start looking in to breastfeeding classes since I am 99% sure I've made up my mind on that subject. Up next, To cloth diaper or not? That is the question DH and I will tackle next.

12 weeks!

So, I've set mini milestones for myself to get excited about. The first being to see/hear the heartbeat, the second was to get through the first trimester.

Today, I am 12 weeks! I've had a relatively easy pregnancy so far. I've had no real major problems, and baby is growing right on track. I hope the rest of my pregnancy goes just as smoothly but then, it wouldn't be like Josh or I to make things easy. :D I am just excited to get to baby shopping! Josh and I decided to wait until 12 weeks to start ordering things. I know things could take a turn at any moment but I feel safer now that the first trimester is behind us. (well, after this 12th week)

We have lots of day trips and weekend trips planned. I've decided that so long as I was comfortable and had the Dr's ok, We are still going to travel like we wanted to this year. I figured we might as well since baby is already packed with everything it needs :D Much easier to travel with now then when it gets here and we have to pack an extra bag or two plus the stroller and carseat.

That's all for now, My next appointment isn't until 15 weeks. I'm going to attempt to con the dr into letting me see baby again, if not, I'd have to wait until I hit 20 weeks. Here's hoping right?

Tata for now
Me & Baby

Baby Update

Here is Baby G @ 10 weeks I am in love.

Everything is looking great with Baby G. Growth is right on track and it has a nice strong heart beat. It was in the 170's yesterday. I'm having a pretty easy 1st trimester. Only gotten sick enough to throw up twice. I've been really nauseous but it normally doesn't last more then a day or so at a time. I'm now 10 weeks pregnant! And there is for sure only one baby in there. There was no where for the other baby to hide :D

Nothing much else to update on really, Josh's Mom & Mr Dan just left and while we had a blast with them, They left us with head colds. lol. So we are both fighting them.

Baby Bean's First picture

Josh and I went to our first ultrasound today. It wasn't my real OB appointment, she just wanted to check to make sure everything was growing right and how many there were because of the Clomid.

There is only 1 baby. It's measuring at 6 weeks and 2 days. Much to my suprise, we also got to hear the heart beat. The Dr said it was a nice strong heart beat and baby looks good.

It was so surreal to see that little flicker on the screen and when I heard it, I started to cry. It was the most amazing thing I have ever heard. I can't believe how in love with this little baby I am already and I still have at least 34 more weeks until I get to meet her/him.

I'm going in on April 9th for my regular OB appointment and the DR said she will do another ultrasound for me.

xoxo

Me & Gummi Bear

Amazing Update!

Yup, That's right. We are finally pregnant! We decided we were going to give up, I didn't go to the doctors, we were just having fun. I found out on March 1st. The day before I was due to start my period. I went to the hospital that day to have it confirmed and then back the next day to get all of my blood work done.

According to my LMP, My due date is November 5th. However, since I have been charting on FertilityFriend.com, they give you an estimated due date based on when you actually ovulated. That date is November 10th. So it's not that big of a difference. My first ultrasound is on March 16th so I will be back to update then. My friends are telling me I have more then one in there since I found out so early and the lines are so dark. I guess we will have to wait and find out.

xoxo

Me & Gummi Bear

I'm getting tired of this...

Month after month of negatives. This time at least I didn't see it in the form of a test. My period showed up on the day before my chart said it should start.

So now, I have my HSG scheduled for next Wednesday. There will be no clomid this month so I am hoping that my ovaries decide they want to release an egg being as my tubes will be wide open.

I have no idea where to go from here. I just found out today that there are fertility clinics out in town but Tricare (my insurance) no longer covers any part of them because of complications after the treatments. But if I'd like to go on my own, they can't stop me. Sounds real appealing right?

I guess we should just give it a rest and enjoy our last year in Italy but that is so much easier said then done.

xoxo
Me

Follicle Growth Update

We have a go!
The follicle was at 18mm so she decided to go ahead and give me the trigger shot.
Now comes the fun part.
Then the wait to see if it worked. Wish us luck.

Update of sorts...

The day before my HSG, I got a call saying their machine went down and they weren't able to preform the test. But since I took the Clomid this cycle, I had to go in to check for follicle growth.

It seems like everyone in Naples is pregnant but me. There were so many pregnant women in the waiting room this morning. But what else would you expect from an OB office?

Anyway, I get taken back and am told the doctor is running a little behind and will be in shortly so I put my ipod back on and try to relax. That damn Kellie Coffey song "I Would Die For That" comes on. (If you don't know it, it is about the struggles of TTC) I start crying like I always do when I hear it. Of course just then the Dr would walk in right?

So, she asks if I am Ok and I just kept crying and told her how sick I am of trying everything we can (Naples is very limited on fertility treatment) with no luck and how I feel like I am losing faith that it will ever happen for us. She said she understood my frustrations and she is sorry she can't be more help for me. She told me she would understand if I didn't want to have the ultrasound done. But with me being a "What If?" type of person, I knew I had to do it.

Long story short, there was a follicle there but it was only 12mm. Before she will trigger she'd like to see it be at least 18mm. So I am going back in on Thursday to be rechecked and Josh is finally able to go to an appointment with me so we will be talking to the Dr to figure out what our next step is. We both feel that we shouldn't take anymore Clomid without having the HSG done. Because what good would ovulation do if my tubes are blocked?

xoxo
-Me

Happy New Year!

I am very hopeful for the coming year. Josh and I are very positive we will be welcoming a baby into our lives very soon.

I started the Clomid back up again (much to Josh's dismay :D) and wednesday I have my HSG scheduled to make sure that the only problem is the ovulation thing.

Will update more after that appointment. For now just wanted to say a belated Happy New Year to all our friends and family.