Baby Bean's First picture

Josh and I went to our first ultrasound today. It wasn't my real OB appointment, she just wanted to check to make sure everything was growing right and how many there were because of the Clomid.

There is only 1 baby. It's measuring at 6 weeks and 2 days. Much to my suprise, we also got to hear the heart beat. The Dr said it was a nice strong heart beat and baby looks good.

It was so surreal to see that little flicker on the screen and when I heard it, I started to cry. It was the most amazing thing I have ever heard. I can't believe how in love with this little baby I am already and I still have at least 34 more weeks until I get to meet her/him.

I'm going in on April 9th for my regular OB appointment and the DR said she will do another ultrasound for me.

xoxo

Me & Gummi Bear

Amazing Update!

Yup, That's right. We are finally pregnant! We decided we were going to give up, I didn't go to the doctors, we were just having fun. I found out on March 1st. The day before I was due to start my period. I went to the hospital that day to have it confirmed and then back the next day to get all of my blood work done.

According to my LMP, My due date is November 5th. However, since I have been charting on FertilityFriend.com, they give you an estimated due date based on when you actually ovulated. That date is November 10th. So it's not that big of a difference. My first ultrasound is on March 16th so I will be back to update then. My friends are telling me I have more then one in there since I found out so early and the lines are so dark. I guess we will have to wait and find out.

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Me & Gummi Bear

I'm getting tired of this...

Month after month of negatives. This time at least I didn't see it in the form of a test. My period showed up on the day before my chart said it should start.

So now, I have my HSG scheduled for next Wednesday. There will be no clomid this month so I am hoping that my ovaries decide they want to release an egg being as my tubes will be wide open.

I have no idea where to go from here. I just found out today that there are fertility clinics out in town but Tricare (my insurance) no longer covers any part of them because of complications after the treatments. But if I'd like to go on my own, they can't stop me. Sounds real appealing right?

I guess we should just give it a rest and enjoy our last year in Italy but that is so much easier said then done.

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Me

Follicle Growth Update

We have a go!
The follicle was at 18mm so she decided to go ahead and give me the trigger shot.
Now comes the fun part.
Then the wait to see if it worked. Wish us luck.

Update of sorts...

The day before my HSG, I got a call saying their machine went down and they weren't able to preform the test. But since I took the Clomid this cycle, I had to go in to check for follicle growth.

It seems like everyone in Naples is pregnant but me. There were so many pregnant women in the waiting room this morning. But what else would you expect from an OB office?

Anyway, I get taken back and am told the doctor is running a little behind and will be in shortly so I put my ipod back on and try to relax. That damn Kellie Coffey song "I Would Die For That" comes on. (If you don't know it, it is about the struggles of TTC) I start crying like I always do when I hear it. Of course just then the Dr would walk in right?

So, she asks if I am Ok and I just kept crying and told her how sick I am of trying everything we can (Naples is very limited on fertility treatment) with no luck and how I feel like I am losing faith that it will ever happen for us. She said she understood my frustrations and she is sorry she can't be more help for me. She told me she would understand if I didn't want to have the ultrasound done. But with me being a "What If?" type of person, I knew I had to do it.

Long story short, there was a follicle there but it was only 12mm. Before she will trigger she'd like to see it be at least 18mm. So I am going back in on Thursday to be rechecked and Josh is finally able to go to an appointment with me so we will be talking to the Dr to figure out what our next step is. We both feel that we shouldn't take anymore Clomid without having the HSG done. Because what good would ovulation do if my tubes are blocked?

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-Me

Happy New Year!

I am very hopeful for the coming year. Josh and I are very positive we will be welcoming a baby into our lives very soon.

I started the Clomid back up again (much to Josh's dismay :D) and wednesday I have my HSG scheduled to make sure that the only problem is the ovulation thing.

Will update more after that appointment. For now just wanted to say a belated Happy New Year to all our friends and family.

No holiday suprise...

Another month, Another negative. I'm getting pretty used to it.

AF showed on Wednesday, 4 days before I was expecting it. I sat down and cried for almost an hour. I really thought we might have gotten pregnant this month. I even threw up twice.

While I am sad that we wont be able to tell our families the we are pregnant for Christmas, I am REALLY UBER excited for the coming weeks. On December 9th, we fly out of Italy to head to the states for the holidays. We will be there for 3 weeks. Maybe the magic of Christmas will help us this month.

So for now, I've started charting my temps, and paying attention to different signs. When we get to the states, I am buying some OPKs to help with trying to figure out when I am ovulating. When we get back I will start all the other testing and back on the meds.

Merry Christmas & Happy Holidays!
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Me...